but my goodness what I did achieve last year to the end... in and out the home ... This is the focus on what I attained, not what to see be in my eyeline currently ...
The hatred for the continuous disarray in timelines of past, present and future not of the usual questions in quandaries. The mammoth immense task left for us to face. And me mostly when left on me own.
At least this year a lot will go of the inlaws, I unfortunately had to be custodian of in the way they lived, first when the home was dispersed, then unfortunately when my mum in law passed away, a little earlier than her own Mum ... The photos and things that once used to fascinate me, now I have not much time for ... The recoil in how I am now, after to much for too long ... and the getting rid of it taking longer than I would like ... which tis usual...
Only this and these are the only remnants of a life from the paternal line my daughter has now. The immediate ones are not here, especially a father in law who was researching the family tree to tell her in person. This bits of paper and certificates and letters tell a lot in itself ... Her hobby of that along with collating all the moving images and making into film now. Her goal is to continue on with her love of filming, and not just filming, the story telling and innovative ideas she has had already ...
The paternal line though in the meantime giving rise to is it the influence of environment or in the genes in creating the collecting in an OCD nature from collecting to using too much space .. The concern for our daughter and future generations...
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