Life drifts on ...

... into our separate ways again...  Big changes and massive changes all round ...

... peace descends for now ... time and space I now like ...

A mixture of time spent on new, newest and old loss in remembrance ... clutter from life in death ... 

and time in a social context and new and more new areas visited and explored ... Sights sounds anew too and more words and images created 

And a ruthless time in change of life to come ...

Less Circles in the round ...

And more straight lines of destiny ...

Fate turns bittersweet into life anew instead of askew as of  late ...

A legacy left is moving into a new dimension ... 

The support of the next generation in appreciating my values in life 

The welcome felt my those that now matter to me ... 

Music, Moments anew and more ...

And I have achieved until now a day for me and myself ... of which some of the memories are in words, that I have logged as this precious day progressed ... Through a reflective thoughtful and quite time 

Beautiful on the senses ... I had the time to taste, smell, hear, touch and see ... with what makes me happy  

More Transparency Less Greed ...

this even more vivid to me now post adversity. And in all areas of discussions with various people met along the way since my husband passed in that travesty of time ...

I am unable to face working in the retail trade, as once it would have been OK ...  

The working environment in artificial lighting ... Is only just the beginning ....

It is hard enough as a customer to go into these environments as it is at the moment ...

The greed of product placement of items you do not really need ....it has long been noticed at the aims of children too ...

The way the optical illusion of selling products to make it look more than there actually is  ... The fact too of a good deal ... watered down ... 

The prices rising and less product at the same time ... 

In some areas you pay for what you get ... There is still too many  areas where you do not get what you pay for?

There is so much out there that is still not transparent despite coming some way since those Eggs in particular ... 

All ... said and done ... For all the advances in technology and brilliant minds who have thought up and invented things through time and the rapid times in the last century or so ... There is still greed in life with the fact that we could ... have a lot more available to us ... then we do now  ... to make life a lot easier all round ... 

Tides of Time

How daughter and I have had a brutal change in our way of life and plans set aside for the unthinkable 

irritation in the skin

Is the sign all is not well in my being

Another trip to get help...

Task in task

A tidy mind ... Mind blowing clutter ... Preparations to clear the way in a life of modern clutter since newspapers and collections through time ... Cluttering up life for people who do not let go or and cannot manage simple tasks in life 

The impact on personality ... life ... Far beyond the people involved ... 

Afternoon tea ...

The onimous dark sky only vaguely aware of ... 

The hail left off until I was indoors ... And down they came the lashing easing into a light drizzle of rain ....

I decided on a light meal for the minute ... And see how I feel after a luxuriant bath ...

I'm letting the mood guide me presently 

I went out this afternoon via a visit to the funeral home before catching the bus into Dartford ... Again sitting inside a while and a walk into the entrance of the park ... With holiday activities on today and my mind down memories of long long ago ... 

Familiar but oh tis so different

Many memory moments

Trying to continue on the recovery route with the latest loss 

Hope to get back home soon and see what delights I can cook up with a bit of those ready meals to keep on top the nutrition values I have been feeling better for 

I been out and about various places new to me after time away but once not so new ... If I had not 

A Try Again ...

... Insulation in a world away ... Tis much pleasant in an ironic way ...

Tis a reminder after yesterday's determined efforts to try the usual normal and ways of once ... Taking  control of destiny and going with it again ... 

Death as in life is not conducive in trained conversations in others at the end of communications 

A Day Back In Life ... A FTER ANOTHER DEATH ...

... walking out via the funeral home ... the body held up from the back log still one week later ... 

A walk in the bank ... to attempt ... to pay a bill ... too expensive for the amount ...

At least my medication pick up was a little simpler ...

A change in a policy ...

An attempt at a phone call to get the bill paid ... still no joy ... so complicated ... will await the usual three attempts at phoning me out of office hours specified with those funeral arrangements that can't wait for decomposition ... but in this country the slow grind of wait for us ... rid-cu-lous ... 

A frustrating day on a simple task of disposal of a loved ones remains ... and with a loss deepened from my late husband not here to do this for his Mum ...

The first night on my own ...

Since my mum in law was promoted to glory ...

The clutter in the home at present of coffin selections, the outfits the bibles the song books the plans 

The hymns ... The hospital items ... and all those belongings that come with this time  ... 

And the photos sifted through that are not yet entirely in a good state from the in laws ... For a photo montage set to music ... 

All that is the way to say goodbye and plan the disposal of what we leave behind ... A gift of thanks to celebrate a life with the enrichment of time spent  ... 

... And now gone ... Onto a different plane ...