December in

with many creaks and groans and not just me ... today the belly of the home too ... my daughter's boyfriend gets creeped out ... and with good reason my daughter and I have witnessed much and long before hubby died here ...

The shivers in quivers tonight was I not so traumatised ... and unwinding before lying down my head ... 

And literally letting the dust settle in the bedroom where I heaved and shoved today ... and much I have done in these weeks past ... in clearing many over indulge moments of madness of one deceased spouse excesses in life  ... 

And the innuendo in much words again 

Emotional Upheaval

and times in much disarray in this past time back from and now back to be inspired by others life's again ... 

And getting to see a city and town and country in a county not stepped on, in too long a time ...where a lot of the maternal family hail from, and loads still live and work there. And those now frail that used to entertain us much ... 

Tumultuous turmoils

in these ... the strive and struggle for inner peace ... into nostalgia... 

The tray bakes of delectable home made cookies and cakes ... the home made Choux buns, Chelsea buns, breads, jams, chutneys, and the Christmas cake for school... the exhibition of our decorated wares at open evening and Christmas spirit a plenty ...

In more ways than one ! 

The homemade sweeties and cookies ... in more recent times ... the mulled spices not so much toiling over a stove ... simple easy makes that are such a delight in a kitchen once again in restoration! 

A lotta difference

in change for 2017 ... a wind down in tome ... the hopes enough time in tasks restless ... when what you knew abruptly dissolves and stops ... the result in reconciliation is far too much for one to absorb ... and comes in swathes anew achange continues until I find the rightful path of life choice ... 

A lotta foggy

in the mire. The fun encapsulates the tinge of anger. The focus of a three day weekend doing well despite severe mood swings ... The tinge in much more than anyone knows or at times realises.... 

A talk later about those stupid audition role like interviews to gain a place in society again ... I will certainly need my acing skills in full mode ...